I just finished folding the laundry and made sure everything was neat and clean. I'm not being obsessive compulsive here, I was just doing that to keep myself occupied. I'm not complaining, I know I sometimes wish for moments like this, I just couldn't stand doing nothing.
My kids are grown enough to demand their own space. Once they get glued on their video games or the TV, I'm all alone. I need an intellectual conversation. I can't be talking about Super Mario and Boser all the time. I need an adult conversation.
I know that if others would read this, they would think that I'm crazy, unappreciative ... I'm not. The depression is creeping on me and I don't know how to fight it back. If I were in Makati right now, I would've gone out of the house, gotten into a cab and headed straight to Powerbooks or something but I am a hundred miles away from Makati. The only useful mall around here is SM and it is overpopulated by a bunch of school kids who are trying to be hip and chic. Puhleezzz!!!!
It's already 5 pm, James should be out by now. If I were in Makati, I'd be busying myself by now, preparing our meal for dinner, expecting him to be home in an hour's time. But this is Cavite and it would be impractical for him to go here everyday.
You see, this is why I am whining. I am here with no friends, just enough money to tide me through the week, nobody to talk to but my kids ... you can actually say that I am slowly losing my life right now.
5:04pm ... I'm about to close this blog but I still don't have any idea what I'm gonna do later. Oh well ....
My kids are grown enough to demand their own space. Once they get glued on their video games or the TV, I'm all alone. I need an intellectual conversation. I can't be talking about Super Mario and Boser all the time. I need an adult conversation.
I know that if others would read this, they would think that I'm crazy, unappreciative ... I'm not. The depression is creeping on me and I don't know how to fight it back. If I were in Makati right now, I would've gone out of the house, gotten into a cab and headed straight to Powerbooks or something but I am a hundred miles away from Makati. The only useful mall around here is SM and it is overpopulated by a bunch of school kids who are trying to be hip and chic. Puhleezzz!!!!
It's already 5 pm, James should be out by now. If I were in Makati, I'd be busying myself by now, preparing our meal for dinner, expecting him to be home in an hour's time. But this is Cavite and it would be impractical for him to go here everyday.
You see, this is why I am whining. I am here with no friends, just enough money to tide me through the week, nobody to talk to but my kids ... you can actually say that I am slowly losing my life right now.
5:04pm ... I'm about to close this blog but I still don't have any idea what I'm gonna do later. Oh well ....
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