But all these have changed when my mom came home for a vacation. I didn't know that she had plans of renovating the house in Cavite and so I became sort of her foreman/interior decorator. I thought the whole renovation would take around 2 weeks but it took us longer than expected. In 3 weeks, we only got to finish the second floor. It did turn out to be nice but now I am left jobless, most likely houseless and stuck with looking after the kids.
Don't get me wrong. I've always wanted to be a stay-at-home mom but this was not how I pictured it. Let's go down to the list:First, I want a house... CHECK! Well it's not really my house but my mom's abroad for another year so it's technically our house right now. Second, I want all the amenities ... CHECK! Currently, the house has cable, air conditioned room, a phone, and even an internet connection. Third, I wanna be able to look after the kids ... CHECK! The kids are here for two reasons. One, cause they're on vacation and the heat would be killing them without an aircon. Two, because no one's available to look after them.
SO WHAT'S MISSING??? Well for one, my husband's not here and couldn't be home everyday because we're in Cavite. That's the second thing. Being in Cavite meant less interaction with friends and less social life. So, lately I am already feeling the drag of being here. Having all the amenities doesn't even help. When the net was first installed, I was on it for more than 12 hours. But it doesn't feel that exciting anymore.
I miss the interaction with adult people. Neighbors out here are friendly but we don't have anything in common since most of them are stay at home mom's who are contented with the slow motion life in Cavite, contented with local channels on TV. It may sound materialistic but this is how I really feel. Sometimes, I wish I could just go out, smoke some cigarettes while drinking coffee. INTERACTION!!!
Don't get me wrong. I've always wanted to be a stay-at-home mom but this was not how I pictured it. Let's go down to the list:First, I want a house... CHECK! Well it's not really my house but my mom's abroad for another year so it's technically our house right now. Second, I want all the amenities ... CHECK! Currently, the house has cable, air conditioned room, a phone, and even an internet connection. Third, I wanna be able to look after the kids ... CHECK! The kids are here for two reasons. One, cause they're on vacation and the heat would be killing them without an aircon. Two, because no one's available to look after them.
SO WHAT'S MISSING??? Well for one, my husband's not here and couldn't be home everyday because we're in Cavite. That's the second thing. Being in Cavite meant less interaction with friends and less social life. So, lately I am already feeling the drag of being here. Having all the amenities doesn't even help. When the net was first installed, I was on it for more than 12 hours. But it doesn't feel that exciting anymore.
I miss the interaction with adult people. Neighbors out here are friendly but we don't have anything in common since most of them are stay at home mom's who are contented with the slow motion life in Cavite, contented with local channels on TV. It may sound materialistic but this is how I really feel. Sometimes, I wish I could just go out, smoke some cigarettes while drinking coffee. INTERACTION!!!
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